Senpai's scribbles

Let’s be honest, Attack on Titan is not just an anime. It’s a philosophical war epic disguised as a show about giant, man-eating humanoids. Sure, the Titan fights are cool , and yes, Levi flipping through the air is peak animation, but if that’s all you took away from AoT, you might have missed its most haunting message: Hatred is an endless cycle. And breaking it? That might be the hardest battle of all. Throughout the series, Hajime Isayama drags us through a brutal world where revenge fuels revenge, oppression breeds more oppression, and nobody, not even our so-called heroes , are truly innocent. AoT isn’t about good vs. evil. It’s about perspective, generational trauma, and the cost of freedom. So, let’s dive into the show’s deeper themes and why its take on war and hatred hits way too close to home. The Eldians and Marleyans: A Never-Ending War At first, Attack on Titan sets up a simple story: Titans = bad, humans = good right. Wrong, by Season 3, all that went out th...

Have you ever looked in the mirror and thought, Is that really me? Maybe you’ve had moments where you felt like you were watching your life from the outside, like an observer in your own story. It’s unsettling, right? That feeling, the fear that your identity is slipping away—is something anime explores in some of the most psychologically intense ways imaginable. Whether it’s through mind-bending thrillers or emotionally devastating character arcs, anime has a way of making us question: Who are we, really? And what happens when that sense of self starts to fade? Today, we’re diving into three anime that capture this existential dread— Paranoia Agent , Perfect Blue , and Re:Zero . Each of these stories takes a different approach to identity loss , but one thing is certain: once you start questioning reality, it’s almost impossible to go back. Perfect Blue : When Reality Becomes a Nightmare Let’s start with Perfect Blue , because if we’re talking about losing identity, this mo...

Let’s talk about Your Lie in April , the anime that single-handedly made thousands of people question whether they really needed to be emotionally stable. If you watched this show without shedding a tear, I have questions because honestly, I couldn’t keep my tears at bay. But beyond the story that emotionally wrecked us all, Your Lie in April is a unique portrayal of love, grief, and healing. It’s one of those anime that doesn’t just tell a story, it grabs you by the heart, drags you through an emotional rollercoaster and leaves you staring at the ceiling, contemplating life itself. So, let's dive into what makes this anime a masterpiece in showing the beauty of pain, loss, and moving forward. Kousei’s Struggle: The Weight of Grief and Trauma From the start, Kousei Arima is the definition of a broken prodigy. Once a child piano genius, he loses the ability to hear his own playing after the death of his strict (read: terrifying) mother. His grief isn’t loud or dramatic, i...

I used to believe that most of the people in my life were my friends. For the longest part of my life, I felt empty if when I was around people and I really didn’t understand it at all. For some reason every interaction felt forced and it seemed like no none talked to me intentionally, like a game where everyone knew the rules except me. Conversations felt empty, friendships seemed temporary, and the idea of belonging? That was something other people got to experience. Then I watched My Teen Romantic Comedy SNAFU ( Oregairu ), and for the first time, I felt like everything finally made sense and I wasn’t alone in feeling this way. Hachiman Hikigaya: A Reflection of My Own Isolation From the very first episode, Hachiman Hikigaya’s outlook hit me harder than I expected. His monologues about youth being a lie, his hatred for shallow social interactions, his acceptance of solitude—all of it felt similar. He wasn’t your typical misunderstood anime protagonist waiting for the world to...